sueprogress - Saturday, May 12, 2007 8:34:12 PM

This treatment is such hard work! Definately the biggest challenge I've been faced with in my 51 years. Each day brings new struggles. Today anxiety is high about getting enough fluid into my body as my blood pressure was low yesterday. And it feels like I'm constantly drinking! Stomach problems have preoccupied me the last three days as the chemo, anti- nausea drugs, and radiation completely dried out my system.

Life just doesn't feel fair right now. That's all there is to it. My sticky tongue, and salty taste , along with the upset stomach make food unappetizing or downright detestable. I'm trying to use the feeding tube when I can. Oh, how I wish I had extra weight on me!

So many kinds of awful! I am aware that each day is not the same as the day before. And Peter is by my side, taking care of everything, and trying to be helpful in any way that he can. But this is a rough period.