sueprogress - Friday, May 18, 2007 5:28:58 PM

We're in the single digits, friends! Nine more radiation treatments left, and one more 5-day chemo period in the last 5 days.The end is clearly in sight, and I feel galvanized by this.The MD was uncertain about the third chemo treatment, but decided yesterday that I'm doing "great" compared to the norm so he will most likely go forward. I was not happy to hear this, but am hoping that seeing the end around the bend will carry me through.

It's taken a few days to write. Between the am hospital appointments, and afternoon visits to the acupuncturist, along with sitting on my perch or place of comfort (the living room couch), it's been difficult to get updates out. Reading the newspaper, magazines, and phone contact with friends is about all I have the attention for these days. But I do feel fortunate that I am able to focus even in these small ways. According to the MD, many people in my predicament cannot.

And I am fortunate to be able to continue eating by mouth at this stage. My food options are limited to soft foods due to a very dry throat, and coming up with food options that appeal feels challenging at times. But most days, I am able to get three meals down, along with 2-3 supplement cans. My weight has dropped a little this week and I'm hoping to gain a little back over the weekend.

So my days are challenging, with stomach upset stiil there, anxiety about getting enough food and drink into me, and an itchy upper chest that is quite burned from the radiation. Still. I am getting through.